Missing Baby Girl

My mama has had Blakelyn for 3 days now and I am missing her so much. She is only 4 months old but I know mama is loving every minute that she has with her. I wake up at night just wanting to hold her and kiss her but I know she will be in my arms soon. I'm like man what did I do before I had her, it's crazy how much your life changes when you have a kid. It's definitely a love I have never experienced, now I get all those times when mama would say you will understand when you have kids. To this day my mother still worries about me, sometimes it's annoying but then I know she just loves me so much.

We finally had the cedar trim installed at the base boards and windows. Crazy how much you appreciate something that you didn't have for a long time. The guys did an awesome job and I'm just glad that our house is coming together. Now it's time to look at some blinds or maybe some DIY projects for the windows. I haven't posted any new projects in awhile, I'm thinking about making a head board for our bedroom. I'm ready to get crafty!

This weekend I'm going to the New Kids on the Block concert in Oklahoma City. I remember when I was 12 years old and to see them in concert would have been amazing, but I knew there was no way I could ever go to a concert like that. I wish I could go back in time and tell my 12 year old self  "don't worry you will see them 23 years". I'm really looking forward to hanging out with the Amarillo girls and having a relaxing weekend. Well I say relaxing, I'm going to be screaming like a 12 year old girl come Saturday night.

Blakelyn at 4 months old

June 6th 2013

Storms came rolling in last night about 2am, I'm thinking please Lord do not let this thunder wake the baby. Nope she decided to wake up an hour half later, we played the game of putting the passy back in the mouth about 15 times before she finally fell back asleep. She is doing great these days, she is starting to smile so much more. We talk back and forth, well we just make noises at each other but I consider it baby talk! Last night I met up with my friend Jenn M for some Mexican dinner. Her and I were talking and then I look over at B and she just staring at me, and then I notice she has poo all over the outside of her diaper. (oh great) So I take her to my car and clean her up, open up a new package of wipes, yep they all dried up. (thank goodness I had a bottle of water to soak them) I'm sweating profusely because it's 90 something degrees. I do my best to clean her up and then go back inside. Awe the joys of motherhood, I just wish there was a simpler way of changing a baby or owning a non-leak diaper. I've tried all brands of diapers and they all fail the poo explosion.

So today I had to run to Walmart to get a few things, well I never have to get a few things it's always a buggy full. And then when I get home I get mad at myself for all the groceries we haven't even ate yet. Anyway while I was in Walmart two things went down that I happen to experience. In the canned fruit isle an elderly couple was having an argument and then they started cussing at each other. I'm thinking oh my goodness they are doing this right in front of me and have no care in the world who is around them. She was mad at him for not picking out groceries and he could care less what she was picking out. I just ignored them and went about my business. Then while I was in line to check out this obviously gay couple was in the next isle over being checked out. Well he was on his cell phone cussing up a storm to the other person he was talking to. I looked around to see if anyone was bothered by this guys rant, but nobody seemed to care. I so wanted to speak my mind and say hey are you kidding me your talking so loud and it's rude, but nope I stayed quite. I guess some people just have no couth. It's always an experience going to Walmart, someday I would like to go & just peole watch kinda like you do at the airport. Maybe one day!

What was I thinking

It's been a crazy busy week so far, the new sitter started on Monday. She is my friend Jenn K daughter, she was needing a summer job so I thought she would be a perfect fit to watch B for me. Work is picking up because it's summer time and this is my busy time of year! Busy is good, but I wish life would slow down just a tad, I mean Blakelyn is fixing to be 4 months old. I can't believe how fast time is flying by.

Last weekend Courtney and I ran in 5k mud run in Cedar Hill. We decided to go stay the night with my friend Kelly P, we went out to the Oasis bar & grill Saturday night that over looked Joe Pool Lake, it was gorgeous. I have no clue what I was thinking drinking the night before a race but I did, but only a few. It was good visiting with Kelly, I wish she lived closer so I could see her & Zoey more often. I love hearing Kelly tell stories about Zoey and all the new stuff she is getting into.

So Sunday was the big 5k mud run and I'm thinking oh yay you can do this it won't be that bad. Well needless to say it was that bad! So the race started at 8am, we started up a hill, yay that's never a good sign. Anyway our first obstacle was a rope wall we had to climb oh that was about 20 feet in the air, I'm not kidding I could have fell & died. So my arms & legs are starting to feel like jello and then I'm getting mad at myself for thinking I could do this. So I press on, I walk and I run I walk and I run, I tell Courtney "just leave you don't have to stay with me". So she runs a little ahead of me and then waits for me and the next obstacle station, I felt like I was training to go into the Army or something. The obstacles ranged from caring sand, climbing things to crawling on your hands and knees in a mud hole. So I knew I was getting close to the end when I saw the 2 mile marker ok self "you only have 1.2 miles to go." So the last obstacle was definitely the hardest, so I'm on my hands and knees crawling through a mud hole that looks like chocolate syrup. I thought your almost done yay me, but then I noticed that I'm feeling a little ill while I was crawling. Well I can't stop because the people behind me will trample me and I can't just lay there because I will be sunk in the mud. So I finish the run and go grab my water & I see Courtney and I tell her "I think I'm fixing to be sick." She says "come over here", I take two steps and yak! Well it was only water I threw up but still I thought I was going to faint. Courtney was being such a good sister, she even went to get me another water. I could have cared less if people were staring at me or not, I just needed to sit down and take it easy. So I doubt I'm going to do another mud run or any 5k run unless I'm very well prepared. This week I've been really good at working out, so the next time I decide I want to do a 5k run I will be in better shape.

While I was gone Sunday Chad had B, he text me a picture of her. I thought it was so adorable, he has been out of town working during the week so on the weekends he wants to spend as much time with her as he can. I think it's pretty awesome that he takes her down to his shop, so he can piddle and do his manly things and also watch her at the same time.

Oh and I have some awesome news I'm going to be in my friend Jenn M wedding in November. I'm super excited about it and I can't wait, this will be the 2nd wedding I will be in. My friend Jennifer is an amazing women who has a giving spirit and is one of the coolest chicks I've ever met. She has been through the worst heartache anyone could ever imagine and has overcame with even greater love. God truly had a plan for the two of them & I know they are soul mates. Just being around them you can feel there energy for one another. I'm so happy for them & I can't wait to be apart of there special day.