Oh Baby

Saturday I ran to town because I needed to get some new capris, I haven’t lost all this baby weight yet and I can’t fit into my old jeans. While I was in Cato, I found a cute outfit and decided to go try it on. In the dressing room I have the whole outfit on and then all of the sudden Blakelyn just starts freaking out crying. I was like oh no so I got her out of the car seat and tried to console her it wasn’t working. I thought about taking her outside of course I’m in there clothes and I don’t want them to think I’m stealing. After about ten minutes in the dressing room with no sign that she going to stop whaling I decide to get out of there quickly. Thank goodness the outfit I had tried on was perfect. I paid and hurried out of the store, once outside she stopped crying and everything was fine. Crazy how two seconds ago she was freaking out and then you take her outside it’s like nothing ever happened. I guess she’s going to be an outdoors kind of gal. 

Later that evening Chad and I sat outside, I watched him grill out while B laid sound asleep in her car seat. At my baby shower I had received this bug net that goes over the car seat, that thing came in handy. I didn’t have to worry if anything was getting on her.

Sunday was Mother’s Day, went to church and then came home and relaxed with Chad & Blakelyn. It was a gorgeous day outside and it was so nice to receive all the nice text messages from family & friends wishing me a Happy Mother’s Day. Being a mother is by far the best job I could ever have and I truly feel blessed to be her mama.

Some People

Chad will be home today, thank goodness. I miss him when he's gone and I know he misses us. Yesterday was a pretty good day. Ate lunch with Jenn K and then went to Sams, I don't know what we were thinking about meeting up on a rainy day and having a baby out. Oh well I love good company and enjoyed the adult time I got to spend with her.

While I was at Sams a grumpy old man was behind me in line. I told him it would take a minute because I had all these check coupons for enfamil you get in the mail & by gosh I was using them. When your paying $43.00 for a box of formula ummm yes I will be using coupons thank you very much. The old man waited another two minutes and then asked the young lady "how many more of those do you have". Which she replied "3 more". He huffed and through his items back into the buggy, I was thinking wow it's a slow day in Sams and the lines are not even busy. The check out girl Emily said "I wish I could throw something into my basket". Emily was a very sweet girl, it's nice to know she wasn't irritated with my 10 check coupon use that took about 2 minutes each to process. We talked about rude people and said that is just something we are going to have to deal with for the rest of our lives. So while I was walking out of Sams I noticed he was right in front of me. So he showed his receipt to the lady at the door and then started to complain about the lady with the coupons which she replied "we don't accept coupons". I said "excuse me ma'am he is talking about me, I have some check coupons I used for my baby formula". Which she said "oh yay that's fine". I said "he's just a grumpy old man". Now I don't disrespect my elders but I sure wanted to give him my two cents. I kept my mouth shut because I knew better but the nerve of some people. I would totally understand him being upset if it was a busy day and the lines were long but c-mon it was a rainy day and hardly anyone was in Sams. And yes I will do it again and again if I know I'm going to save some money.

So Sweet

Why is it that you can be so mesmerized by just staring at a baby, I love the way Blakelyn holds her little hands under her chin when I’m feeding her. I love her smiles and the way her little mouth opens so wide showing her little gums. I think I’ve already given her a thousand kisses on the head & feet and I’m sure I’m going to give her a million more.  I’m still amazed that Chad and I created such a beautiful little girl; I think God had a special plan when he created Blakelyn for us. We thought his plan for us was to adopt a child, but then just when you think you have it figured out he leads you into a different path.

I wish that I could bottle up her scent so I could smell it every day.  I pray that God slows down time because I already see her little body growing so fast and her little face changing.

Don’t you remember being a kid and everything seemed slower. It seemed like it was going to be an eternity before I would be able to drive or even graduate.  I told Chad last week “is it just me or are the week’s flying by”, it’s like we blinked and it just came & went.  Everyone keeps telling me to enjoy every day because it goes by so fast.  And believe me I am enjoying EVERY DAY!

Pedi & Tacos

Yesterday was a pretty good day, well except for the fact that I had to be at the office for a 9am meeting but then the rest of the day was good. Picked up B from the sitter's house, then went over to my friend Jenn K's house, we visited and she held baby girl just ooing & aweing over her. Left there and met my friend Jenn M for a quick pedi, for some reason she keeps getting a crappy pedicure at one of my favorite places in town. I always use Windy and nobody else, Windy is my girl she's the best! I have no idea why I get wonderful service and she keeps getting crappy pedicures, they are way to quick and are done with her in no time. While my girl is just taking her time and doing her job the right way. I think $20 is enough for a good pedi, I mean c-mon she didn't ask for the exfoliated scrub down or anything but it just seems business people always want more money for something so small to do. So basically Jenn M soaked her feet in the water, barely got a clipping of the toe nails and then a paint job, ummm I guess that's what a $20 pedi is these days.  Sorry I went off on a little vent about that, but sheesh... Love my two Jennifer's and wouldn't trade them for the world!

After the pedicure I went to the new gas station they opened up to pick up Courtney & I some tacos to eat for dinner. Courtney was coming to stay the night with me because she hasn't got to spend any time with Blakelyn lately and it was driving her crazy. Anyway so I'm the gas station waiting for my tacos to be ready and one of the Hispanic ladies comes around the corner and she totally starts freaking out about the car seat and wanted to see baby girl. Now mind you the car seat is just sitting on the ground and I'm just standing there waiting for my food, the young lady just picks up the car seat and starts walking with B to behind the counter to show the other girls the baby. I probably would have cared about her grabbing the car seat but seriously where is she gonna go, and plus I know I would tackle anyone who tried to harm my child. OH MY GOODNESS, you would have thought these women had never seen a baby before. They were totally freaking out over her, well and of course I was loving it! They were all talking Spanish to her so of course I couldn't understand them but I just loved the fact they were just so smitten with her. Anyway they help me with the tacos and the food, well let me clarify I carried the tacos and the food they carried the car seat to the car.

Got to the house and Courtney got B out of the car and we ate are tacos talking about our day & I told her about the girls at the gas station. She was like wow, I said I will be going there at least twice a week now to get tacos just so they can oohhh and awe over my baby girl. Crazy yes I am!

May 6th 2013

Well last night started off so peaceful until at 2am this morning there was a little girl named Blakelyn having a party in her bassinet. So I tried the whole put the passy back in the mouth routine which obviously didn't work because she was still kicking those legs like she was running a marathon. So I got up made a bottle fed her & then put her back down thinking she would be milk wasted and pass out. Nope I was wrong she still kicked those feet & made baby noises (by the way I love those sounds) and just played in her bassinet. Finally 3am came around and she was out, Thank you Lord now I can sleep for 3 more hours until I have to get up. She was doing so good sleeping throughout the whole night, I guess I've been bragging to much about her so she decided to pull a fast one on me. Love it though & wouldn't have it any other way!

Today I picked B up at the sitter's around 1pm, I'm one of those mama's who is constantly thinking about there child and wishing I could be with her but I also want to have a life and get out in the world. Anyway I picked her up & the sitter said that she could no longer watch her because she wanted to come & go as she pleased. I totally understood and was like no big deal I can find someone soon to watch her, thank goodness its almost summer because I'm going to try & recruit my girlfriends daughter Lauren to come & watch her for the summer break. Plus her mama said she has been telling her to get a job for the past year. I've been working since I was 14 or 15 can't remember but I've always had a job. My first job was a paper route, ahhhh those were the good ole days. Throw on your roller blades and start chucking some papers. The crappy thing about that first job was you had to role each & every newspaper but they were small but I still complained. I've also baby sat my fair share of little kids and I think that's maybe one of the reason I waited so long in life to have children, well and of course find the right guy to marry. One of the other great jobs I had in highschool was working at a grocery store. Now those were some good times, I would get out of school around noon my junior & senior year to go to work. I loved having my own money and knowing I worked hard for it. Looking back though I wish I would have participated a little more in school and stopped thinking about what we were going to do when the weekend was here. My friend Kelly worked at the store she had a car & we were always cruising up & down the drag, ok if you don't know what a drag is well let me explain. There was a particular route that we drove up & down every weekend to see who was out & what was going on. This was before cell phones, well people had cell phones but only the richy rich could afford a bag phone in there car. C-mon it was the 90's...

May 5th 2013

Today my baby girl Blakelyn is 11 weeks old, I like to call her B or baby girl stupid I know, but that's just my thing. I decided to start a blog to document what's going on her life as well as mine because one day I want her to look back and read all the random idiotic things mama did. My inspiration comes from a book my friend Mandy referred me to called "Sparkly Green Earrings" by Malanie Shankle. So I bought the book the kindle version of course and started reading. I felt like this girl was describing me, she is a mother who started a blog because she doesn't scrap book (who has time for that) but she wanted to document what's going on in her daughters life. So I thought why don't you start a blog so your baby girl will know all your crazy stories and she can read all about her life when she was a little girl. Now I am here to state that I am no writer and don't claim to be one, I can't put sentences together and I miss spell words all the time. So don't judge me if my writing seems all over the map, there is so much going on with my life that I feel I need to write it down.

Today was a good day Chad woke up at 3am and drove to Missouri and then I woke up about 7am fed baby girl and then we both went back to sleep about 9. I contemplated on do I really want to get up and get ready for church, yes self get up you haven't been in 3 weeks. Anyway after church we came home I fed her and then she passed out while I cleaned. What I wished I was doing was walking at the park on this beautiful day, but she was resting so peaceful I just couldn't wake her up.

The old Ryan would have been probably hung over on this Sunday from a previous evening's of having a little to much fun. Selfish Ryan went out the door when I peed on that little stick and bam prego! Stopped smoking & drinking and thought ok I have this little creature growing in me I've got to behave from now on. I spoke to Courtney today and yes she was hung over & even got sick last night, idiot! I really don't know why I'm calling her an idiot I would have been right beside her having fun. I pray for her all the time to get pregnant, she is gonna be such a good mama and I know she won't be out acting like a fool & drinking to much. It's crazy how this little human being can change your whole life, and it is true the instant love I felt the moment she was born. I'm one of those naive people who thinks it's going to take me just a little bit of time to fall in love with this person I mean nobody falls in love that quick.. Nope it's true instant & total love, like the kind where you would cut someone into a million piece's if they ever messed with her kind of love.

Well like I said earlier she is 11 weeks old today and growing longer and longer every day it seems. I just stare at her sometimes and think she is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen, and sometimes I get teary eyed just staring at her. I think sometimes I can be an emotional person, but i try to be so tough all the time I don't want anyone to really think I'm just a big puss. I cried in the second chapter of reading "Sparkly Green Earrings". When she found out she was pregnant and then went to the doctor and then went back a week later and she had miscarried I couldn't imagine having to go through something like that. I'm so blessed to have never gone through that and so thankful that my baby girl is healthy in every way. I'm looking forward to the days when she is going to wrap those little arms around me and tell me how much she loves me, I'm not going to look forward to the teen years when I'm sooooo not cool to even hang around with. I'm just glad that's a million years from now. Back to the whole crying thing, is it just me or as you get older you get a lot more sappier?

When I was in my 20's I could have cared less about the news or politics (well honesty I still could care less about politics) but for some reason I do pay attention a little more about what our president does have to say. And I do feel like he is a compasionate president, whether people like him or not.

I'm very fortunate to have a job where I should work full time but I don't because I don't want to get burned out by what I'm doing. And plus I love spending all my free time with baby girl. Well my free time used to be get off about 2 or 3 and then going to hit up the local watering hole for a few. Nope those days are long gone! Well it's off to bed, this old lady has to go to bed early to get my 8 hrs of sleep or I'm cranky. Plus Chad just called from Missouri, him & Neal are probably sitting around a fire drinking a beer awe I'm jealous.

Canvas

I got this idea from a friend who had this canvas, so I decided to make one myself! I bought a Canvas at Hobby Lobby (40% off) painted it gold. I laid down the leopard print tissue paper and then Mod Podged over it. (I folded the tissue paper in half so it was like having two sheets) I then created a heart out of texture. Once that was dry I painted the cross red and glazed the canvas with black. I painted a key hole in the middle and a design below the heart.